I just returned from roasting coffee.
Was going to strip my clothes off and jump into bed,
but I thought about all that smoke from all that coffee just
the smell of the burned off sugars, oils,
the deli and its deep fryer—
if I dove into my brushed cotton sheets,
covered in fleece and feathers;
And when I stepped into the shower,
melting away the harshness of life
like marshmallows dissolving in hot chocolate;
thankful for the water running over my body,
long, deep exhales with audible
I picked up the patchouli soap, gliding it all over
turning to let the spray reach my left side,
standing in that one position for about
And I thought, “I always do this, stand like this,
but do I ever switch sides and let the right side of
I say that in full confidence, for
Sensations I had never felt before
and I wondered in an instant
"how many other ways do I limit myself
without conscious decision;"
how much of life had I missed?
A profound sadness swept over—
tears, feeling sorry for my lack of
who cannot sleep for fear she will
(God, what have I missed?)
that there was vision in the 1st place,
a love and thirst for life;
having the ability to tell myself that there was something more
to turn the other way without